What filming my BSCHOOL scholarship video in the nude taught me about my body and my mind in color

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You know that feeling you get in your stomach that coils inside you like a boa constrictor wrapping itself around your goals and dreams ten-fold? Or what about that deep desire quaking inside of your soul urging you better yet – suppressing you to be true to who you are.

I never want to forget what I believe in and don’t think anyone desiring to inspire millions really does either!

We all are in this together and so creating a scholarship video for Marie Forleo’s BSCHOOL doesn’t require you to neglect who you are…

It challenges you to share with the public exactly who you are and what you believe in.

Filming my scholarship video placed me in a zone of discomfort because I am avidly working on self-love and my muse wanted me to get naked. Be real. Be honest.

My body was never something I noticed joyously but wearing this visible cloak of authenticity – I just allowed this time together to act as a learning lesson. Dig out of me exactly who I am today and who I will continue to be tomorrow.

My mind noticed the aggression of perfectionism and worrying over comparing myself to others. I breathed intensively through the self-hate. It’s all that I could do to keep fear at bay.

This is a chance of a lifetime. Live in the moment. Go! Voices in my head screamed at one another while I tried to make sense of the reasons why I should make this video. Questions if not answered truly would lead to fear and failure.

I mean what could this video possibly bring to the table?

Where will this video even go?

How am I going to make this video if it’s just me and my iphone.

All the answers seemed to be stored somewhere under lock and key. I felt a seething energetic labyrinth unfolding if I did not choose love over fear – quick! With my warrior “fuck it, I’m doing it” attitude and magical Alchemist iPhone in hand I stormed throughout the house collecting every arsenal of color I could find.

Poised by determination, ambition, passion, and inspiration I birthed into existence this video.

Color empowers me. It drives me to show the world how I feel. It reminds me how diverse energy can be expressed. I (like you) am an expression of the Universe feeling a human experience.

And there is no shame in that, now is there?

Until next time <3 :star: and :mrgreen:

3 Comments

  1. That video is really satisfying, probably because it’s all you in there, your creative expression, your passion, it all comes through! I also think its a fantastic way to tell people who you are, your own advertisement. I say flaunt it! it’s beautiful, your beautiful 🙂

      1. Well that video could be the start to many more videos. Or keep using that video as means to advertise your brand. There’s so much you could do to keep expanding, you’ve got the stuff.

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